Haha good excuse for a The Academy Is... song.
For some weird reason, I haven't really gotten into the Christmas Spirit this year. I've had a big fight with my best friend. It's fixed, but it's still not the same between us. Knowing what happened and what could happen. But we're friends again, nonetheless. Haha she just texted me! :)
So This year has come and gone and I don't really want it to end. Yes, This year was mostly worse than 2007, but I think I'm still holding on to my Gram and I just don't want to let go. For those of you who don't know, My Gram passed away in March from Lung cancer. The cancer ended up going to her brain and then she slipped into a Coma and passed away. On one of my Best Friend's 16th Birthday.
So now i'm pretty depressed. I really miss her. This is our First Christmas with out her. Yeah we had thanksgiving without her...but that's different. Yeah I was bummed she wasn't there, but I wasn't Nearly this depressed.
My parents got my brother and I new phones, and we got to open them early - saturday. We opened them incase they didn't work right, like dylan's. I will say I love mine. It's the Pantech Matrix. And it's Viberate mode is Violent! So I see why its called the Matrix.
But I really don't WANT to celebrate Christmas with out my Gramma. I just wish this Winter would pass quicker. I actually wrote a song about this yesterday. I still haven't titled it yet (it's pretty weird not having titles for any songs now. I normally write the title first and then get to the song a month or two later. haha.)
I've had friends try to help me but It's just really hard because I miss her so much! And I just don't want to talk to anyone about it. I'm not sure why...life's just so weird right now. (the Akward Teen years aren't helping one bit).
As Christmas is fast approaching (just a few hours... 12 and 1/2 to be exact) I'm plastering on a smile so no one else will be depressed. I'm trying to keep it together. Trying to have a Merry Christmas. I hope your have a better one than me!
Merry Christmas!
Kat
4 comments:
It's always hard having someone you love not be there during the holidays. My grandpa passed away a couple years ago, but i still miss him a lot. But it does get better, i promise :)
Maybe try and focus on who is with you right now: mom, dad, sisters, brothers, uncles, aunts, etc. And be thankful that they are with you on this holiday :)
-Lindsay
merry christmas, Trina! I hope you're able to still enjoy it!
I hope your Christmas cheered up! Here is to a Happy New Year!!
I'm sorry about your grandma but I know how you feel. 2006 was a bad years for me because my friend, one of my cousins, and my grandpa died that year. I hope that your Christmas wasn't horrible but hopefully it was great. I didn't really feel in the mood foe Christmas either.
Happy New Year
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